I always reminding myself that monday should be started in high positive energy. No tantrums, no snob attitude, no sermons from my boss and no quarrels with my partner.
Though I started waking up in a positive aura, as soon as I received the regular "goodmorning " message the positive one faded instantly.
I sent more messages, even if I am in a busy meeting this morning but what I get is a response from air. The next is when he is bound to school.
Everyday, I felt that the sweetness is declining. Though I know this is the hardest dates for us since we are both busy on our own business. But I guess it is not fair that as soon I tried to open myself to make this relationship work, I do not feel the efforts from his end. I asked him if we can go out after the holy week but I havent receive any feedback yet since last night. It seems that he is avoiding the issue. Im excited for it because we will celebrate our monthsary. But again, I dont feel him. I am dying to see him and telling that I miss him so much, but as he texted , "miss u more"... No signs of sincerity.
I always ask myself, is there something wrong with me? My kakulitan is the only thing that you can count against me but other from that I guess there is none. I am pissed if I do not receive response immediately, because I do not buy the word "busy"... grrrrrrrrrr.... this is really really getting worse...=(
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