the boy wonder

He is definety not a FAKE!!!!

Yan ang tumatak sa isip ko when Kenneth sent an sms to me.. To my surprise as son as i checked my email, sumagot na pala siya... First impression? He is cool, wity and Straight to the point. I cant imagine kasi na ang isang professional ay ma engaged sa pagmamasahi with sexcapades... Everyone has its own individuality, yun na lang ang naisip ko.

Siyempre building a raport sa isat-isa kamustahan, asking sa damage for the services and blah blah blah. We had some conversation while I'm heading to the airport to catch my Cebu flight for a 20 day training. It's a wrong move I guess that I sent him an email last night inquiring for his services (wrong move nga ba Boy SHiatsu?). He might think kasi na I am wasting his time and load eh hindi naman pala ako mag avail ng service. A common business principle ika nga. But i didnt felt na ganun.. I duno... I replied to his email and told him na I can say now that "I am very excited to meet him na"... hindi na a bit... very excited na! hahaha...

As soon as I got back mas mapapatunuyan ko na hindi ka nga fake.. Ill see you very soon Boy! :D

It ends tonight

Yes.. It definetley ends toinght..
i am fucking tired of all the things that he have done to me.

i feel so desperate. nagago ako.. nabola... nauto.. nagpaktanga..,

hurting words but true. i was like fucking old fag... paying jerks to love me...
am i? is this my fate? or just my choice?

i caught myself advising my friend on how to deal her breakup from his asshole BF...
i said this.. i said that... fuck myself!!!! i babbled things and ideas for her to buy in... some she tried to chew and digest.... but me? i puked it!!! i fucking puked it!!!

this is final.. i am tired... i would rather ne alone than to feel alone with someone. someone who after 17 months of being together.. i do not hear any good things about his personal life. yes. i allowed this jerk to this to me... this time i will not cry.. i will not fall on the bed of drastic emotions... i am stronger...
i am man enough now to face this... i lose the game.. but its okay...

i know it will be okay...