It ends tonight

Yes.. It definetley ends toinght..
i am fucking tired of all the things that he have done to me.

i feel so desperate. nagago ako.. nabola... nauto.. nagpaktanga..,

hurting words but true. i was like fucking old fag... paying jerks to love me...
am i? is this my fate? or just my choice?

i caught myself advising my friend on how to deal her breakup from his asshole BF...
i said this.. i said that... fuck myself!!!! i babbled things and ideas for her to buy in... some she tried to chew and digest.... but me? i puked it!!! i fucking puked it!!!

this is final.. i am tired... i would rather ne alone than to feel alone with someone. someone who after 17 months of being together.. i do not hear any good things about his personal life. yes. i allowed this jerk to this to me... this time i will not cry.. i will not fall on the bed of drastic emotions... i am stronger...
i am man enough now to face this... i lose the game.. but its okay...

i know it will be okay...